November25

It will be a different Thanksgiving this year for our family, in big ways and small. Watching the news this morning in the early morning hours, bouncing Jude on my lap, I saw the long lines of Thanksgiving travelers snaking through the airports and my heart lurched. Normally we would be among them, wrangling our way through security and sipping a well-deserved Starbucks at the gate while awaiting our flight to Denver.
This year we decided to stay home. It was the right decision, but a difficult one. We are in a season of learning to live with less, and the sacrifices that entails are testing me on every front. Less travel, fewer splurges, and constant deliberating over what I want versus what I need. I find myself taking the newspaper, glutted with Black Friday ads, directly to the recycling bin. In a way, it is a relief. The maelstrom of holiday shopping swirls around me like a Florida hurricane, and I am trying to stand in the eye of it, clutching my hard-won peace to my chest and counting my blessings, which are many.
This Thanksgiving is also different because it is marked by loss, a loss which makes any other seem trivial by comparison. On Monday, my brother-in-law Justin’s father, Rob, went home to Jesus. God answered our prayers that his pain would be relieved by taking him quickly, ending his battle with lung cancer. Rob will enjoy a different feast than the one we’ll prepare on Thursday—this one marked by freedom from suffering, supreme joy, and sweet reunion. But for the people he left behind, it is a time of grief. I write this to ask you to please uphold their family in your prayers.
It is a curious crossroads: to mourn the loss of a loved one, and to celebrate the joys that remain. To marvel at the two baby teeth preparing to adorn Jude’s gummy smile one moment, and to cry on the couch the next. The beauty and the ache are inseparable, as they will always be this side of heaven. I suppose, if it weren’t for the ache, we couldn’t appreciate the beauty.
Which is thanksgiving in its purest form.